This week is over~

[janebuz_jane]

It was a super busy week for me, what with a massive convention at work, my mother in town / staying with me for said convention, coming out to my parents, and writing some stuff for HQvolleygirls.

The writing part was fun as it forced me to write and post things that I wasn't completely happy with? Which sounds counterproductive but I think I tend to work a fic so MUCH when I'm writing that it turns out completely mushy and boring. I'm kind of scared to write a longfic for this very reason - I know I'd struggle with posting it before I took a fifth or sixth look at everything to make sure it's absolutely PERFECT. 

It was also my first time writing girls, which was fun. ✌ I learned a lot, swiftly and voraciously. I don't know if what I wrote was hot, but I guess, ideally, I should be writing it for me, and not anyone else. 

... I want people to enjoy it, though. Aargh.

Comments

[tiggeryumyum]

The writing part was fun as it forced me to write and post things that I wasn't completely happy with?

Yes learning to let go when you're not totally happy with a piece i think is important? ALSO one of the blessings with fanfic in particular is you can always go back and edit something later.... like i know some people don't like that but sometimes you can only get a clear editing eye months later, idk. I think it is one of the best parts of posting fanwork!!!

but you kind of glossed over this!!!

coming out to my parents

omg i hope that went well!!! congrats??

[janebuz_jane]

Yeah!! For sure I'll go back even.. a day or two later and spot little pieces where I just need to change a word or two because it sounds clunky. I even edit stuff I posted years before :SDLFKJS it's scary but worth it, I think? I keep telling myself that people will probably like it either way and it's much easier to suspend disbelief for a fanfiction than, say, reality, but the controlling part of me clutches on with both hands like NYAHHHHHH lmao

The coming out went fine!! I didn't plan on doing it really... ever, honestly? Because there's not a significant other in the picture? But goddamn if it wasn't on the tip of my tongue - I'd wanted to tell them back in June, but it never seemed like the right time, so when I accidentally blurted it out to my mom (she was up here for a work convention - I live in a different state) I realized I'd have to tell my dad too (which was fine, I just had to do it over the phone instead of face-to-face). They're fine with it! For all that I'm from the South, I got lucky with parents that are extremely supportive and loving, if not a little shell-shocked. I think I was a little shocked too. I kept offering them pamphlets. 😂 They really just kept reinforcing that they hated that I felt like I tried to hide it? But I didn't really. I just didn't tell them until I was SURE about it.

But :LSDKJF thank you for your congratulations!! It's good to have it out there in the open. I feel a bit more honest and content with myself, really, and I swear I wouldn't have thought it would make a difference but - here we are!!